OK, so sometimes I’m a little slow.

I’ve been trying to figure out how I can be of service to God, and be at my spiritual best, while simultaneously working full-time, keeping house, buying groceries, etc. As I feel myself turning into more and more of a mystic – not on the aforementioned mountaintop, but smack dab in the middle of a major city – I’ve been confounded by the seeming conflict.

Just now it hit me, blinded me with it’s brightness (thank you, angels). It’s not a conflict. In fact, it’s kind of the point.

Now is the time for ALL of us to move forward, for ALL of us to stand up and… look inward. To see who we really are, in all our divine perfection.

And first – we’ve got to look past all the distractions we have created for ourselves – cell phone, TV, internet – AND that report that’s due, that PTA meeting, etc., etc., all those many things that we value that really have nothing to do with anything.

We hardly ever look at each other. Not really. And so we’re missing out on what’s really important. Each other.

Here’s the thing – the only way we can all cross the threshold that we’re zooming up to right now is TO DO IT TOGETHER. Helping each other, sharing the little tidbits that we figure out along the way. Listening to each other, and talking to each other. Hugging each other.

Sooooo… the whole mountaintop thing is counter-productive right now. Those that did it before us, they paved the way. They found the silence and the beauty and the wonder, and they showed us the way, left guideposts. Jesus and Buddha and Mohamed and so many others – they did it the hard way. They found their way to their souls, and thus truly experienced the Divine, ON THEIR OWN, with no other human beings to guide them. Yes, each had teachers, certainly each had Divine support – but the last part of the path was new for humans. They each blazed a path, marking it along the way so others could follow, teaching and sharing what they learned. And we are still learning from them, following their paths. But we don’t have to go it alone as they did. In fact, we are supposed to help each other. When one slips and falls, another must help him up, brush him off, and hold his hand while both continue the journey.

So of course. One path before me. Yes, it’s time to simplify things some more, to continue to pare down to what’s important. But there is no conflict, unless I insist on complicating things. (Doh!)

I just need to keep moving forward. One step at a time.

Love and light,


Real life vs. spirituality

This is what I wrestle with almost every day of my life – how do I reconcile the overwhelming pull I feel to be here and now, to pray and meditate, to heal and to counsel, and also to make things (which is somehow part of my spiritual practice) with the simple need to, well, eat and have a roof over my head?

It’s a whole lot easier to shine your light, to be calm, serene, in the now, etc., etc., when you are sitting on a mountaintop and/or living a monastic life. But what about out here in the “real” world?

Yeah, I know – it’s the other way around. This physical life of ours truly isn’t what is “real”. When I do catch my breath, center, pray, and listen, I can clearly see that. I know that what we are experiencing from one day to the next is a classroom of sorts, where everything helps us learn and grow, if we so choose. I’m deeply grateful that I can see that now, that more and more of the time, I know it.

But yet… I still worry about money sometimes, even that I know that this is counterproductive, that focusing on the negative creates more negativity. I still occasionally get annoyed with the actions of others, and frequently get annoyed with myself. (This post is Exhibit A on the latter!) Still try to plan things into the future, fighting the overwhelming evidence in my life that it works much better to take life one step at a time, without expectations – which makes it all so much more peaceful, with more opportunities for joy, and fewer for disappointment.

That’s it, really – I need to let go of my ideas of how things are supposed to work, and let God/the universe show me the path that does work. One step at a time. I need to remember that whenever I act out of love, in whatever form, be it giving a listening ear or simply smiling at a stranger, that I am doing exactly what it is right for me to do in that moment. That this is an instant of being right here, and right now. And that is what counts.

So… I just need to breathe, and be present.

Just thinking out loud…

Love and light,


How can I live my best life?

This is the question I asked the angels tonight. Here is the answer I received:

Be kind, even when you are not treated with kindness. Know that there is no reason to allow another’s behavior to affect you – for truly, it affects only them, unless you choose to join them. Only your own behavior, your own actions, truly affect you in the end.

Be patient. Everything happens in its own time, for its own reasons – and you may never know the reasons in this life. But know that the reasons are there, and trust that each experience unfolds exactly as it should, and when it should – even if it doesn’t seem like it at the time.

Reach a helping hand to those in need. Share – your love, your caring, a smile. So little can be so much.

Be the light. Shine brightly!

Love and light,